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Forsaken. This may seem like only a word to most people, but in my family it's a way of life. Who can betray or let down the other first. I alway seem to be the brunt end of this one little "harmless" word. Forsaken. The one thing that I wanted most in my life won't be happening because my father deemed it not so. Let me break it down for you.
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(5:00 a.m)
Dad: (opens door) Dette
Me: (awoken from a deep sleep and jumps up thinking something is wrong) Wha???
Dad: Are you going to Mississippi today?
Me: (groggily) Yeah
Dad: You aren't leaving this state with MY car!
Me: It's not your car.
Dad: Yes it is and you aren't going to Mississippi with it.
Me: Fine. But I'm going somewhere today.
(exit stage left)
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So as you can see, I'm 23 and still don't have my life as my own. I'm working on changing this, but it's not easy. So I've decided to go away for a few days. I won't call him to let him know I'm not coming. I'll just email him with a simple I'm sorry and be on the road before to long. I'm not saying where I'm going cause frankly I don't want anyone to know. If you thinking to yourself "Yeah like your going to get far", I've already been approved for this place. The almighty last authority of my household has spoken. I swear to myself and to you who read this that my husband or any man for that matter will never again rule my life. Now if you'll excuse me, I have a wet pillow that needs drying and I need to get ready for the trip.
Amy if you read this then don't worry. I'm some place safe. I'm not saying where I'm going and please don't tell anyone I've left. They wouldn't notice that I'm gone anyway. I'll be back when I get back. Take care. Hugs.
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(5:00 a.m)
Dad: (opens door) Dette
Me: (awoken from a deep sleep and jumps up thinking something is wrong) Wha???
Dad: Are you going to Mississippi today?
Me: (groggily) Yeah
Dad: You aren't leaving this state with MY car!
Me: It's not your car.
Dad: Yes it is and you aren't going to Mississippi with it.
Me: Fine. But I'm going somewhere today.
(exit stage left)
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So as you can see, I'm 23 and still don't have my life as my own. I'm working on changing this, but it's not easy. So I've decided to go away for a few days. I won't call him to let him know I'm not coming. I'll just email him with a simple I'm sorry and be on the road before to long. I'm not saying where I'm going cause frankly I don't want anyone to know. If you thinking to yourself "Yeah like your going to get far", I've already been approved for this place. The almighty last authority of my household has spoken. I swear to myself and to you who read this that my husband or any man for that matter will never again rule my life. Now if you'll excuse me, I have a wet pillow that needs drying and I need to get ready for the trip.
Amy if you read this then don't worry. I'm some place safe. I'm not saying where I'm going and please don't tell anyone I've left. They wouldn't notice that I'm gone anyway. I'll be back when I get back. Take care. Hugs.
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