Life of a Bamburg

Ever feel like you just wish you had someone to tell you that your decisions in life are the right thing to do? All I've ever wanted was for someone to gently guide me in the right direction. Now I'm faced with one of the biggest decisions in all of my life. And I've really begun to think that I am really all alone. Case in point, I went over to Ganzy's place tonight to just stop in and say hello. Everyone was having a good time and I just kinda felt like I no longer belonged there. It really upset me because I thought that these people were my friends. I haven't found my niche in life yet. That's the most aggrevating part, but what makes me feel worse is I sit here and think about it. It's like I can't get it out of my brain and talk to someone because really and truely when it comes down to it, who do i trust? My best friend? Lord knows where he's at right now so he's of absolutely no help to me. My Indian friends? They just wouldn't understand cause that's nothing that they are exposed to. Believe me....they WOULDN'T understand. My internet friends? As much as I love them, they just don't really know the real me at all. They know the me I allow them to see. My sorority sisters? I couldn't possibly do that! I'm still trying to get a feel on them. As it is, they probably think I'm white trash anyway. It's so confusing and I really have nowhere to turn to for advice. I guess it's going to have to be on my own from now on. Time to get started then.