Life of a Bamburg

I know it hasn't been long since the breakup, but oh well. Time heals broken hearts...especially when you don't care about the person anymore. That's the one benefit of being me. People come into my life and slip right out. I care for only a certain few.

As of right now, I'm going to go see a friend of mine tomorrow. His name is Grant. Met him through Cajun Singles and we are going to go out tomorrow. He's really sweet, kind, crazy, charming, and makes me laugh. He's a little sex crazed, but at his age who isn't. I just with that he would use a little more decourum sometimes. He's got me thinking about things in my life and I wonder if he's the one for me. There are so many strange coincidences in our lives. For instance, our birthday's are the same day...only months apart. His first contact with me is on the date that we share for birthday's...only a different month. Coincidence or some kind of funky karma thing going on? You tell me.

I've been feeling better lately since I've gotten some lately. It makes me feel relaxed and calmer than usual. I'm just hoping right now that he's going to be able to call me back in a little while.

I've been dumped. Nothing more to say.

I don't think I've been this happy for a long time.
::Shawn enters stage right::
This man has my life upside down right now. He saw me 2 weeks ago and took all this time getting up the courage to speak to me. The more we talk, the more I feel that I've come across the love of my life. The more we talk, the more we learn about one another. Neither of us can get enough of the other. I love to learn about his life. I love everything about him. I was never a true believer of love at first sight until I met him. He's intelligent, sweet, kind, funny, and as an added bonus to the package, he's DROP DEAD SEXY! We talked on the phone until 4 this morning. When I talk with him, I find that I'm so comfortable and so expressive of my feelings. He brings out the best in me. He's a truely awesome person. Last night while talking, he said my name. I know this may sound like something insignificant to you all, but he's never called me by my chat name in a private phone call. It makes my heart melt when he calls me by my whole name. No nicknames for him. Well getting back to the story, he said my name and paused. I was getting ready to say his back, but then I heard him sigh and say, "I love you." That took me by suprise. I've loved him since the first time I spoke with him. To hear him say it brought butterflies to my stomach and joy to my heart. I know you may say that this is too soon, but I firmly believe that there is some intervention is at work here. He brings joy and comfort into my life. I only wish that we would be closer in distance cause I believe that we are close at heart. I can't wait for him to get home. Just to hear his voice and see his smile that melts the remaining pieces of ice that is left over in my heart from the iceberg that Manny created in me. It feels like first love. You know what I'm talking about. Your first love that makes you all "atwitter". He makes me feel this way. Giddy, happy, wonderful...the adjectives could stretch for miles. He comes home later tonight that yesterday and will try to spend as much time with me as possible. As I sit here writing this, I remember the words and can't help but smile.

Ever feel like your friend's really aren't your friends? Well I just got the ass chewing of the century from someone I considered to be a friend. Why you might ask? I'm not going to get into details. She knows what happened and treated not only me but HIM badly because of it. Did she have any right to? NO! I've forgiven her for what she has done because I understand that everyone has bad days. Will she and I ever been friends again? I don't know. Right now I have no trust in her whatsoever because of what she did. If it had been me I wouldn't have done this to her. I went through all of this crap when I was dating Manny and I refuse to be dragged into this shit again. I trusted Erin and she never did anything with Manny. She wound up hating him but as far as I know they never did anything and I never had a reason to not believe her. I will not go through this with Amy however. She can have whoever she wants to have. Just don't involve me in anything anymore. I don't want to know cause frankly right now I don't care. I did care, but I don't now. I'm sorry if this post hurts you, but this is how I feel. I'm betrayed. I'm hurt. I really don't want to be associated with you right now.