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Here I am! It's the last day of finals and I'm just going to go over the edge. Things didn't go as well as I had planned and looks like I'm going to be repeating more than 1 class next semester. I know the reasons I didn't do so well and it's all because I'm one of the laziest people I know. YES....I AM A SLUG! First step to recovery is to always admit that you have a problem. You ask me if I'm feeling ok? Well the answer to that is a resounding NO! I have no drive, no motivation. Why am I even doing this for? Is it still for me? Am I still continuing on because someone tells me that's my only option? Why do I do this? Why?
On another front, I'm going to have to somehow manage to turn my house into a place that looks like white trash doesn't live here. Going to be hard work for me tomorrow. I don't know how I'm going to be able to manage to do it. I hope that my sisters don't get the wrong impression of me. I'm scared to death. I don't want them to see me as the person that I am. I never want anyone to see what I come from. I just keep wondering if what my father told me a long time ago is true. "You will never be better than what you are right now, so stop acting like you ever will be." Crushing words I know, but I've always thought that I could be anything in the world that I wanted to be. The older I get the more I wonder if what he told me so long ago doesn't have some ring of truth to it. Will I ever be any better than the white trash that I was brought up to be? *slinks off to cry in a corner now*
On another front, I'm going to have to somehow manage to turn my house into a place that looks like white trash doesn't live here. Going to be hard work for me tomorrow. I don't know how I'm going to be able to manage to do it. I hope that my sisters don't get the wrong impression of me. I'm scared to death. I don't want them to see me as the person that I am. I never want anyone to see what I come from. I just keep wondering if what my father told me a long time ago is true. "You will never be better than what you are right now, so stop acting like you ever will be." Crushing words I know, but I've always thought that I could be anything in the world that I wanted to be. The older I get the more I wonder if what he told me so long ago doesn't have some ring of truth to it. Will I ever be any better than the white trash that I was brought up to be? *slinks off to cry in a corner now*
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