Life of a Bamburg

So we finally got to go to our Founder's Day banquet. It was so nice! The restaurant was nice and the food was soooooooooo good. It was a long event. We finally get to the end of the presentations and my cold decided to come back with a vengance. I started coughing to where I thought I would hack up a lung. All that activity made me lose my dinner. I couldn't believe that I got sick. That's definitely not a Founder's Day that I'll forget any time soon.

Yesterday sucked! Raining in sheets so heavy you can't see your hand in front of your face. Busy as hell at work, taking over 100 calls in a day. Stupid people I might add. Still raining when I get home and then I had to get ready for the meeting from hell. Meeting was crap and then had to drive home in the rain that was pouring all day. My day was crap and then I walk into the door and push the play button on my machine. There was the message that brought my spirits up to the top. "Hey baby. Hope you had a good day and I miss you!" He knows me so well.

Allergies still have me as their bitch, but I'm trying to fight fire with fire! My cold is getting better and I'm taking enough meds to kill a horse. Driving through Mississippi yesterday was a journey. Lots of rain and lots of flowers with pollen everywhere. Damn ragweed and oak pollen!

Good news and bad news today. Good news is I got my bid to Online Alpha Phi. I'm so excited about it. Bad news is that Ed may not be coming home for a while. Delays are the worst man.

Today was pretty good. The little twit who thought she was better than everyone at work because she goes to college actually had to come groveling to me with an apology because she "realized" she was wrong. Wouldn't have anything to do with her being brought in the office and told to apologize by the supervisor now would it? Waiting for the sinus medicine to kick in cause I don't think I could handle another night like I had last night. I'm so tired right now as it is. Just trying to stay awake long enough to see the weather forecast for tomorrow. Only bad thing about living where I live...if you have allergies (as some of us do) you're natures BITCH! I hate having to be sick.

It's 2:30 in the morning and I can't sleep because of this stupid cough. I'd pay good money to the first person that hands me a bottle of good cough syrup. Anyone got a mallet?!

Ali..........you rock too. Don't you ever forget that! BSP till the end girlfriend!

Being hit on by old perverted men who think they are funny was the highlight of my day. Still not feeling very well but at least I know that the meds are starting to kick in. Work all day and not have to hear the whining of a "college" student. That was pretty nice. Get home and I have 2 letters waiting for me. Yes 2 letters.

Could today have gotten any worse?!

My mom still hasn't forgiven me for the trouncing that I gave her only yesterday. I finally decide that I'm sick enough to go to the doctor and they charge me an arm and a leg for something that I already knew that I had. GO FIGURE! Then at work, this little twit decides that she's better than everyone because she's in college and the rest of us aren't. Well needless to say, I had to let her know exactly what I thought of her! I just don't understand some people some days. I guess I'm just ranting cause I'm sick and I really just feel like being a brat. I wish Ed were here with me.

Update:
The Battle Rages On!
That is all...

Today sucked! I spent most of the day on the road. I feel like crap. I think I'm getting sick. But I digress. I went to go get my mom and she was acting like a 4 year old...on sugar crack. Not really doing anything helpful, but wanting to help to the point of aggrivating everyone. I tried to explain it to her and she went on a pouting fit. So here I sit basically going to be kicked out and cut off. Doesn't matter that she gave over $6,000 to family members that never had any intentions of ever paying her back. If i need to borrow a couple of bucks it's the end of the world. That's ok. I've survived worse and I too shall survive this. Just wish that someone would understand the way I act. Seems to be exactly like someone I know.

Tired?

Well today is the day that I've been dreaming for! I finally got my laptop! I've been offline for pretty much almost a year and so much has happened in that time. It's been so strange to actually have to be in the land of the living you know?

Well it's really been too long for me. My computer finally crashed and burned. I no longer have it and that sometimes can be a blessing. The chapter went down from 11 to 3 then made it's way back up to 8 soon to be 9. The functions are good...well mostly. I met someone very special in my life. He's kinda growing on me for a while now and every time I get to spend time with him he makes me feel so very special. There really isn't much going on in my life except for the same old boring ordinary things that have always been going on in my life. I really don't have very much more to write.

Tonight was the night of my first Founder's Day banquet for Beta Sigma Phi. It was beautiful and lots of fun. The food was good and the place was GORGEOUS. I loved seeing all the sisterhood in the building and it really meant something to me. However, things aren't going well in my chapter. Four of us aren't happy with the way things are being run (and I do litterally mean R-U-N). Things are being taken over and not discussed amongst the group of all of us. Well anyway, back to the story at hand. "They" sat there in a very condesending manner and I just wanted to strangle them. They couldn't sit still long enough and couldn't keep from fidgeting the whole night. We had ceremonies honoring people who are significant in our city and all they could do was sit there and talk to each other. I mean, couldn't they have enough respect for these women who've been in this organization longer than they've been alive? NO! They couldn't see past their little bitty noses! I mean how fucking bitchy can you be. Things will hopefully change or we are going to have to leave and go to another chapter. It's sad when you can't stay in the chapter that you feel that you should have belonged to because your sisters have made it into some sort of big clicky thing. I've said my say in this.

I know it's been a while but I really haven't felt up to the task of blogging lately. The new job is keeping me busy and mostly tired every night. Grant....well Grant is giving me a headache most days. I love him and care about him, but how can I make him see that I'm a person that should be treated with as much respect as he wants to have? I just don't know what to do anymore.

We had a fight earlier tonight. (and yes....I mean fight!) Now he's not taking my calls or anything. I'm just so tired everyday. I want to crawl up into a corner and cry right now. He's made me feel the shittiest I've felt in a while. I swore that no one would ever make me feel this way again. I'm tired of being the one that has to take on the whole responsibility in a relationship. I'M TIRED OF DATING BOYS!!!!!!!!!!! When will a real man walk into my life? When will I have the intelligent conversation and regards that two intimate people share? *sigh*

Maybe dad was right? Maybe I am white trash and deserve no better. I always had my hopes and dreams. Now I don't even have that anymore.

Well my week has gone by in a flash. Almost. Got to spend some quality time with Grant during the week. I enjoy seeing him, even if he considers himself to be an asshole. He really is a good person. How can I make him see that though?

Started my new job on Thursday. It's going to be a lot of hard work, but I think that I'm up to the challenge. I brought my book home this weekend so I can study it some more. And when I say study, I mean STUDY! This thing is bigger than a Baton Rouge phone book. Lots of maps and codes and stuffis. I dread having to walk out to my car to go get it later today.

I go to pick up Grant about 4pm. He's really nervous about today. And to be honest, so am I. I'm just hoping that he doesn't do something stupid around my parents for them to have a reason to hate him right off the bat. He's already got points against him cause my mom LOVED Manny. I'm going to have to give him some last minute pointers on the way to the house tonight. Please God...don't let him screw up.

I went to take my drug testing today for my new job. You know what I'm talking about. "Please wash your hands. Don't flush the toilet. And while your not too busy, see if you can pee in this little bitty cup that we give ya." I swear! I think that this would be the only time I would wish that I was a man. So anyway, I call them up before I leave to go to ask them a few questions. This being my first time taking a drug test, I was a little curious as to what to expect at their clinic. Well to make a long story short, the woman that answered the phone was R-U-D-E! I wish I could have known which one it was when I got there. Well I waited about an hour before they even called me in there. ONE HOUR! to pee into a cup. I just don't get these people sometimes.

So afterwards I go on to LSU in search of Grant. I get there on campus and proceed to "hunt" for him on the floors we had said earlier. No Grant. So I page him, thinking that if he's in the building then he will go to the nearest payphone available. Nope. He snuck on by me. So finally in a last ditch effort, I got online and there he was. So we finally meet up and get to spend most of the afternoon together. It was wonderful just sitting there and talking to him. I can still tell that he's nervous around me and makes these lame ass jokes and is really loud, but I was really very proud of him for making the effort to NOT drape himself on me like a second skin. I have to keep reminding myself that this is the first relationship he's been in so he doesn't know any better. I have to have patience and let him know when he's crossing that line. He knows that I'm not a PDA person. At least he's trying.

So there I am, killing time till he gets out of class. He comes to meet me and then I catch the smell. He's got this little bottle of pheromones with him and he put some on after class, knowing that I like the smell of it. I could have killed him. Or jumped his bones. LOL I hope that he doesn't put that stuff on Saturday when he's meeting my parents for the first time.

Went to get some food for dinner. When I got back, my mom posed the strangest thing I've ever heard her say. She asked me if I needed help in paying my bills. I didn't know whether to be scared or cry. This is the first time that she's ever OFFERED to help me pay. She'll loan out $6,000 to other members of the family, but heaven forbid if her own daughter should go down the hole. I think I'm still in shock. I'm going to have to talk to her tomorrow about it. I'm still trying to figure out a way to respond. How does one tell their mom that "yes I'm in so much debt and trouble with creditors that I couldn't find my way out of a wet paper bag." Hmmmmm. Any suggestions?

Well I finally got to meet Grant today. I think I've seen him around campus before. In fact I know I have. I just can't remember where, but I'll never forget those eyes. He's very handsome and quite charming. We had fun chatting, but things got a little out of control. I'm glad that I put a stop to things, but I don't think he was too happy about my decision. He felt really bad afterwards, but I hope that he can understand why I did what I did.

I had to bring mom home today in the rain. That was an experience. Seven wreaks on the way there. Doesn't anyone know how to drive in the rain anymore????

I was supposed to go out on a date with my baby tonight, but he had to cancel. Made my heart drop to the bottom of my stomach. Made me think of all the other excuses I've gotten in the past about dates. It really upset me and I took it out on him. I know its not his fault but I really wanted to spend some more time with him. He's got so much potential. I just hope that he cares for me as much as I care for him.

I know it hasn't been long since the breakup, but oh well. Time heals broken hearts...especially when you don't care about the person anymore. That's the one benefit of being me. People come into my life and slip right out. I care for only a certain few.

As of right now, I'm going to go see a friend of mine tomorrow. His name is Grant. Met him through Cajun Singles and we are going to go out tomorrow. He's really sweet, kind, crazy, charming, and makes me laugh. He's a little sex crazed, but at his age who isn't. I just with that he would use a little more decourum sometimes. He's got me thinking about things in my life and I wonder if he's the one for me. There are so many strange coincidences in our lives. For instance, our birthday's are the same day...only months apart. His first contact with me is on the date that we share for birthday's...only a different month. Coincidence or some kind of funky karma thing going on? You tell me.

I've been feeling better lately since I've gotten some lately. It makes me feel relaxed and calmer than usual. I'm just hoping right now that he's going to be able to call me back in a little while.