Life of a Bamburg

Another day...another life. I've been caught in this viscious cycle that has me going around in circles. Doesn't make sense? EXACTLY! The divorce is final and I'm legally a free woman. Also a divorced woman, but beggars can't be choosers. I've been sick for the past week and it doesn't seem to get much better as the days go by. A rhino could be lighter on my chest. As for me personally, I've been trying to look for the new guy in my life. 'New guy?! Didn't you just get rid of the old one?!' Well yes...but I'm always looking for someone who will love me and talk with me and want to say things to me just to hear what I have to say back. Not someone who winds up being a jerk because of stupid shit that comes out of their mouths. The dating scene for me was up to speed but now it's slowed down and I find myself being lonely. 'Well it's the start of a new year and new beginnings.' Yes but I don't want my past to have any effect on my future. I've been pretty blunt and forward about the things in my life and I know what I want and won't settle for less. I wish some others would understand that as much as I do. Sorority is nuts! It's hard for me to be part of a chapter that is 30 minutes away from me. Plus I have so many bills that I can't really get out and do things with them like I want to because I can't afford it. Over 90% goes towards the debt that he put me in. The other 10%? I get to keep that IF I'm lucky. But at least I am happier than I was before and I'm alive...that's all that matters.